I have always struggled with self esteem (as you may have read about already in the mini-bio section of my site). I never thought of myself as pretty enough, skinny enough, good enough, etc. Well, now I am starting to feel like I am getting there. I love the feeling I have when I see myself dolled up in the mirror and think "Oh, I look cute today!"
It is that simple in my mind. I occasionally have my fears and doubts, which I believe is Satan's way of reaching out. I saw this and it struck deep in my heart. I think I may make a sign of it, I am not sure, yet.
But really, if Christianity turns out to be wrong and it is all untrue, would it have been so bad trying to live your life in a better way and making the world a better place? I would much rather spend my time on Earth in a happier way than the opposite.
There. I said it. If you don't like it, too bad. It's just my opinion and I am sure you have your own.
Anyways, I try to remind myself that I signed a marriage contract with my husband to always give him the benefit of the doubt, even when I am angry. I agreed to always love him on purpose, show him affection so he never doubted my feelings, and treat him like a king. Lately, I have not been the best about a couple of these.
Love truly is a verb. You cannot just SAY that you love someone and leave it at that. That means nothing. You have to show that person that you love them and prove it to them. Make them believe it. Give them no reason to doubt it.
Jeremy and I have been married for just over 2 years, and together for almost 4 years now. I feel like it has already been a lifetime with the struggles we have endured, which may sound horrible to an oustider, but to the two of us, we know this is a good thing. In our eyes, this is a test of strength.
Seeing as we have made it through probably 90% of the major causes of divorce in the United States and we are still married, still sleeping in the same bed, still talking to each other, still loving each other, and still actively working on our marriage, (and still alive), we believe we have made it through the hardest of all of it. Now we just have the test of time, which will probably (but hopefully not) bring repeat events.
Every day, I am becoming happier with my body, my life, my relationship with God, and my marriage. I believe they are all linked. I hope that things are going well for you too! Leave me a note in the comments and give me a tip if you have any or link me to a personal story of your own!